Lust and the Goddess

Once again it is night and it’s my time
All the day I live for others
Long and stressful it is on my tired body
Now the pressure has built up inside of me and I must release it
What to do comes natural for it has been done many times before
I lay into the position hoping to find proper stimulus.
Flickering images of flesh and lustful acts dance in front of my eyes
Yet nothing strikes me the right way and I can’t focus on them
I am making no progress and my mind wonders off
My mind falls upon my goddess so beautiful she is
I find myself in another place and time
Her prefect form before me in a seductive pose
Another and another I see her in as if life were a slide show
Without command I go faster and faster
My build up is working and release could follow
Then I am stricken by the fact that the goddess is untouchable
For if I were to touch her no greater sin could be committed
For even to dream of this stuns me and I lose all stimulation that I had
I am quick to scold myself and drive my mind to other things
Again I try to build myself to release as I must
Still I find no help in the bland images of light before me
So all too easily my mind once again turns to my untouchable goddess
More aggressively she comes on this time making moves on me
No more picture shows for now she plays with me directly
Passionate kiss to gentle caress and now her hand working on my pants
She brings me out and I spring to life in her hand
Her spell is upon me and my hands explore and stimulate her goddess form
Her pleasure is mine and I do all in my power to give all I can
Her mouth comes to me as I enter so I am closer to climax then ever before
Then what is happening hits like so many bricks and I fall once again
So much I disappoint myself for my thoughts of the untouchable goddess
I steel myself as I go once more fore release
I must think of anything but the untouchable goddess
Totally forgetting the fake and bland images I go through the women I know
For one to the next I go but the goddess keeps pushing them away from me
Her power is far greater than mine and I must bow down to her will
I let her take me in my mind giving us both full pleasure
Then I can take no more and roll to my side
I explode into her as I release all of my stress
Feeling so much better we lay in embrace in my mind
Then it ends all to soon and I am brought back to what I had just done
More and more the goddess takes control of my desires
It is a scary thought that the untouchable one is the only one I want to touch
So I am left to toil my life away with only guilt to keep me company
Yet this is life with the goddess and it is better than life without the goddess