Meeting in the Car Park

Deep breath in
This is it
Check hair in rear view mirror
Add a touch of lip gloss
Sluttishly short dress smoothed down
Impractical underwear concealed beneath
Ordered on-line, never before worn

Suffocating excitement
Shivers of fear
Will I please him? Will he like me?
Am I what he wants?
Oh fuck! Will he turn up?
Uncertainties plague my adulterous liaison
Doubts in my mind, insecurities

Shallow breaths
Sheer panic!
What am I doing alone in this car park
Seeking sex from an internet lover
I don’t really know?
Why did I plan this? What was I thinking?
Keys in the ignition, hand twitching

Breath held
I see him
A smile on his face as he sees me too
Admiring looks as I step from my car
Lustful desire for the promises I’ve made
His arms wrap around me with dreamt of closeness
Enveloping me, confirming our bond

Deep breath out
Relieved contentment
Seduced via email our connection is perfect
The time has come to convert words into deeds
To share the passion we’ve discussed for hours
And give each other what both of us crave
Satisfied, my breathing slows