Midlife Darkness

Midlife Darkness

Everyone knows where they are going,
So why is so hard for me?
So many options are offered,
So why’s it so hard to see?

Some were meant to live alone,
I guess that is my fate,
But I long to hold another’s body,
And in a passion, mate.

My lonely home contains a void,
I’m fit for noone’s love,
I pray for “her” to find and guide me,
My prayers aren’t heard above.

Sometimes I want to end it all,
I’m useless to mankind,
Perhaps there is some lady there,
And I am being blind.

Days turn to years and I stay as one,
With age will come the fears,
That I will end my remaining life,
Unwanted, full of tears.

I guess it’s time to just give up,
Let laughter consume all others,
I’ll end my life in desperation,
Which consumes until it smothers.