Missing Someone...

He and I haven't been friends for a long time
But I feel like I've known him for a whole eternity
But time and occupation has gotten the best of us
As well as some shared bitter words between us two
I just wish for one moment I could hear his cheerful voice
Welcome me like a pair of warm, open arms
And listen to him tell me how much he misses me
How much he wants me to come back to him
Wishful thinking is nigh on taking advantage of me
Angry tears falling as I've managed to stay strong
While thinking of all the hateful things we've said
Including the ones that were never spoken
And comparing those to the best of times we've had
Thawing my heart, and then breaking it into a million pieces
What if he doesn't want me anymore?
Has he moved on with someone else?
Does he still think of me and all the good things we've done?
Or has he forgotten it all just to replace one bad memory?
I still snuggle with the stuffed toy he gave me on my birthday
Even though I don't tell him that as much as I should
Time and time again, I wake up in the middle of the night
With my eyes stinging and wet, trying to convince myself
That I'm shedding tears over nothing and over nobody
It's all just part of my prelude to a nervous breakdown
But the heartbreaking truth is...the thought of him alone
Is killing me and cutting me, bone and soul deep
Could he be feeling the same way about me all along
Or am I missing someone who isn't missing me?