Mixed Emotions

I never felt so satisfied

Those strong arms wrapped around me so close.
How those ample hands overpowered my dainty palms when they touched.
Gentle eyes that looked at me with such indignation that could weaken me.
Never would I dream of falling in love with a man that towered over me.

I never felt tinier.

When could I bring him down to shambles?
Where was my chance to shine brighter than he?
Why couldn’t I hear those words that mirrored my adoring ones?
I wished I could make him surrender.

I never felt so inferior.

Then came the day we both fell to pieces.
His eyes so wide filled with elation, calamity, and fear.
My cheeks tear stained with the same emotions and more.
Below all the chaos the meaning of love changed.

I never felt so alive

Oh I got my wishes, the ones that I kept deep inside.
Never voicing them, but they began to show.
I no longer tiny and delicate, but curved and ambrosial.
He no longer almighty and strong, but an equal and anxious.

I never felt so content.

Deep within grew our strongest representation of love.
My reflection telling me this is truly beautiful.
And His words, actions, and feelings finally parallel to mine.
This was when those dreams long forgotten before sunrise were finally remembered.

I never felt so agonized.

Winter fell and the time rose.
A blur of weakness, excitement, screaming, blood, tears, joy.
Then the three of us took our place in that new world.
We were both in shambles, yet we both shined, adoring, and part of us now surrendering to the new "him".

I never felt so...