Moving On

You carved your name on my heart
Like your own work of art
But it was all only lies
Now I'm all you despise
And you walked through that gate
As loved turned to hate
But this was your dream
For me to be more than I seem
And told me to aim for the stars
But I reached out too far
And landed alone lost in space
Now I'm losing the race
And I know I need to move on
But I can't feel that strong
I hope God can heal my soul
'cause life's taken it's toll
Feeling so lost full of strife
I'm near the end of my life
So I pick myself up
And drink from the cup
Full of poisonous thought
So much I was taught
That I can't seem to remember
My memories so dismembered
I remember when I was little
But my mind starts to whittle
Away the thoughts of fun
I can't believe that I'm done
You said I would be yours
No matter what life held in store
Now I'm walking alone
For all my life to atone
For the sins I made against you
And the hell that we went through
But regardless of pain
As tears start to rain
I'll never regret
Though I try to forget
This pain that you've given me
All my life I'll want to be free
Of these thoughts in my mind
Keep them bottled inside
And try to move on
But I'm just not that strong
And I see other people having fun
Living their lives and enjoying the sun
I can't help but feel afraid
Because of the promises we made
Together we dreamed
It came apart at the seams
And regardless of truth
As I lose my youth
I feel like it's my fault
And my mind is a vault
To store all these illusions
Forget these delusions
That someday I might
Even late at night
Hear a sweet sound
Someone I found
To tell me one thing
And make my heart sing
But I know it's too late
I'm resigned to this fate
That there's no one to love
No one to hold above
And as I wander myself
I'll put my heart on a shelf
And be one with my pain
Dance alone in the rain
One thing to realize
Surely you can sympathize
That even though you're angry at me
I just want you to be happy
I'll never speak an ill word against you
Although I might want to
Because regardless of the end
You were my best friend
And I will always love you
Put no one above you
And thank you for the time
Though I feel like chyme
And wish things could have been better
All those storms we could weather
But I guess even the strongest rock
Left alone in the dark
Will give way to the water
And yield to slaughter
So I sit here and sharpen this knife
Ready to end it and take my own life
My life's finally over
This weight can't be shouldered
So I'll simply accept the fact that I tried
And accept that our love was a lie
And live my life the only way I can
And never call anyone else a friend