Disassociated, separate, aloof,
Like leaves fallen from a tree.
Part of the tree, yet not on the tree.
Dead ends so to speak.
No more color, no more life left in them,
So are my emotions to me.
There are there, they are one with me,
Yet not quite part of me.
Leaving me not whole but incomplete.
Not quite robotic but not human either.
A wall, yes a wall is what keeps them from me.
A wall I use to keep others from me.
This same barrier keeps me from feeling all.
To thwart the unkind even if that's myself.
Do I feel? What do I feel?
I know not!