My Reality

Just another day,
Caring for another,
Alone but not alone,
My dad, Me and My brother,
Tragedies and so many fucking lies,
I constantly wear this Mask,
My Facade, Charade, a smile that is mostly forced,
Angry and misunderstood wanting to lose all remorse,
Just another struggle I live with,
Feels like a Regret,
Always Alone in My Bed, My own Body and My Own Sweat,
Why Believe in a True Love,
For Me it doesn't Exist,
Just a Hollow Shell as I Raise each Fist,
Feeling My Heart turning as Cold as Ice,
Wanting to say "Fuck all" and never be nice,
Nearly tired and exhausted,
Feeling Unheard,
Not know what I feel at times,
Just can't find the Word,
Confusion with My Morals,
Eyes to he Sky,
Wondering still why I didn't die,
Keeping My feelings to Myself,
Kept locked away,
Didn't want to be a Burden when I didn't know what to say,
Sometimes I still wonder "Why the fuck am I still alive?",
"Why Fear Death?",
"Why Breathe for every Breath?",
"All what My Life is...is Stress after Stress",
"Why continue?",
"Why Push Through?",
The bags get darker under My Eyes,
A few Words to you from The Wise,
Your Life is Special, don't be like Me,
Keep your Eyes Open and you will see,
Bliss and Joy for Eternity,
I'll keep accepting My Reality