Need for a change

Twisting and turning out of control
So many thing untold to those that are supposed to mean the most
Stress such a part of life but where does life begin and stress end?
Time and time again I tell myself it will be all new
Another year passes and still it is the same
I try and I fight and I do what I have to
A washed up college student that had so many dreams
Another drink
Hey pass that ~puff puff pass~
She was going to be something but I didn't think it would be this.
Sitting listening watch all that goes on.
Yet another day passes and her dreams are gone.
Not once did the little girl think this is how it is going to be
But oh shit, check it out, here it is and wow damn this isn't for me
Watching her life change has brought her to the fact
That no matter how hard it is she don't get no slack
The pressure she adds and life in general provides
Have taken this girl, over and over again on a very nasty ride.
When you look at her you see someone you are amazed with
Is it her eyes? the way she carries herself? You may ask yourself what
But the one thing that this life taught her is that shit is rough.
She looks at herself and wonders why didn't it work ?
What did I do?
Oh yeah that's right it is the big heart in this chest that keeps moving me through
The pills didn't work cause she knows she is still here
Damn I must have done something in a past life for this shit here.
Sitting alone one more time is the norm
These are the cards she was dealt and unfortunately she will live on.
No matter what she knows that she tried, but maybe just maybe not hard enough for this life