Never Gave A Rat's Ass

Lying soaked in my own urine
Under cloudy grey and gloomy skies
Dumpster rats salivating at the appetizing
White jelly centers of my eyes

My pursuit of happiness ends here
Along with all of life's beautiful lies
The opportunity to give back to the earth is now
What better use for me than to fertilize

And I
Realize
The lack of compassion and honesty
I perceived I received throughout the years
Was in return for what I myself never did give

This is the way
I taught myself how to live

Staring blankly up at the nimbus
Where my own ugliness resides
Mirrored, the morphing shapes of my fears
Oh, how I surfed the waves of expectation
In the hopes of turning tides

And I
Realize
The error of my ways too late
There's no turning back for me now
As beady eyes of rats consume my gaze

I taught myself how to live this way
My trust was a toll that everyone had to pay


Boy, those were the days