Nightmare

I am living
A nightmare

I am suspended
Over a dark chasm
My legs scrambling
In futility
I look down
And touch
The gaping red hole
In my chest
Beneath the ripped flesh
And broken white bones
There is empty space
Where my heart used to be
My pulse is our pulse
My lifeblood
And my heart
Are literally with you

Eyes wide
I look up
You are holding my hand
Strong and comforting
You are smiling
Down at me
Affectionately
Empathetically
My eyes beg
For your compassion
I need your warmth
I long for your softness
I hear your voice
Like an angel’s song
Everything will be okay
Everything will be okay
But my hand is sweaty
I feel it slipping
Slowly and certainly
Through your fingertips
I am sliding
Into the unknown
And I am afraid
That I will be lost

You release me
My body hovers unsupported
And then plummets
Through the darkness
The life-giving arteries
That connected us
Break and spew our love
Into the void
Your face
Bright like the sun
Fades quickly
Into the cold distance
Now no brighter
Than a star
A pinpoint of light
That disappears completely

From the blackness
I hear the angel’s voice again
I am so sorry
It has to be this way
The sweet intonations
Die in the emptiness
And then
There is nothing

I am now
Nothing