Nightmare In Fibonacci Scale

LEMONIA (F)LEAP EDELTRAUD => POST PELOPONNESIAN

Athens
Friday morning
14/11/2014

NIGHTMARE IN FIBONACCI SCALE

1
fib...
fib...
fibo...
fibona...
fibonacci, man,
che cosa vuoi, fibonacci?
amari cazzi!
anobif...
obif..
bif...
bif...

2
I
was
sober
and depressed
in late October
after my autumn holiday,
my thoughts were sinful
but suppressed
all day
and
night.

3
You
came
and went
and I was
left without a joy
just some future plans of action
hoping to enjoy
drunken doze
vague scent
tame
you.

4
Days
hard
lonely
nights in bed
boredom and despair
eventually you get used
all sorrows to bear,
that been said,
lonely
hard
nights.

5
"Fine
then",
I thought,
"duty calls,
let's take some action",
but I sunk again in dark lakes,
dissatisfaction,
old mistakes,
new roles,
fen
wine.

6
From
where
I was
observing,
inactivity
felt solid and comfortable,
in captivity
deserving
my foes,
scare
storm.

7
When
you
feel scared,
tormented
and vulnerable,
you may say "yes" while meaning "no",
maybe, I don't know,
demented
in dread
I'm
then?

8
But
then
again
how can I
pass my life unclaimed?
(Not for lack of claims, I may add),
passions must be tamed,
then they die,
abstain,
gain
rut.

9
So
I
said "yes,
you can come
and live your fancy,
fanciful I will be also,
although it's chancy,
let's become
pure mess,
lie
so".

10
Five
days
she stayed
and five nights
demons extorting,
taking all she could, good job too!
I was resorting
to free rights
arrayed,
preys
gyve.

11
And
that
was that,
so now what?
Where does that leave me?
Hello, hello... anyone home?
Do you receive me?
I know what!
Hot flat,
fat
sand.

12
So
here
I am,
daydreaming,
nothing but a wish,
hopelessly materialized,
through a life I miss,
lights diming,
nil sum,
dear
snow.

13
All
that
response
to attack
and provocation
from loneliness and sheer boredom,
initiation,
cul-de-sac,
ensconce,
at
fall.

14
Please,
write
your news,
short and brief,
a smile will suffice,
I have been away for too long,
deep buried in the ice,
don't know if
you use
right
keys.

15
Fend
thee
for your
needs alone
if I am not there,
sure, I will be there if you want,
but if you don't care
I'll be gone.
The
end.

1. che cosa vuoi, fibonacci? = what do you want, Fibonacci?

2. amari cazzi = bitter cocks