No, mommy......no!!!!

With her babies in her arms,
and her heart on her sleeve,
little pink cheeks,
and soulful eyes
...Gods answer to "need"
She sings so softly
holds them tight
each moment spent
like its the last of the night,
and it never ends
til a new love begins
another man, not a friend
her mind twists and burns
letting him in
...the madness again?

"Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday,
dear Alex,
...Happy Birthday to you"

She washes and scrubs and
puts it in its place
screaming inside at
the look on her face
running from here, yet standing in place
She turns to him,
but he's never there
she looks around at the empty chairs
...just these high chairs
and car seats, and cribs of despair
Aching for him, love and men
hiding inside, dont look in...
They climb on her knee
"Mommy, play with me"
....but it just can't be

She drives in the night
which one will it be
who will save me, from me?
A stranger, more lost than "me"?
Take me, take me, find me
you can have me....
she enters the home
takes them in her arms,
and out of this world,
into their car seats
goodbye little boys.....
In the darkness she finds the warm water
cover me, surround me,
take me from me,
don't let people see
this evil in me.
But the little boys
so safe in their seats,
where "Mommy" put them
silently scream, frozen in fear
"nomommynomommyno!!"
Into the water she drives the car
knowing atlast the moment is there
she opens the door as the water flows in
slowly she turns away from within,
her little boys, and what might have been
Little Micheal and Alex too
never forget how Mommy loves you
she'll give her life to see you smile
she'll wash and feed you and.....
She's your Mommy, Gods angel for life...

But Mommy didn't "know it all",
had no more band aids, not one last smile
"Nomommynomommyno......!!!"
"the car seats stuck mommy"
"help me mommy, help me NOW!!!!"

"Bye bye Micheal,
Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday, Micheal
and Alex too,
Happy Birthday my babies
Happy Birthday to you..."

Inspired by the Susan Smith Murders of her baby boys.

*Dedicated to those that know all about broken trust, and force.