not this year

so Carson D. is up in the soundbooth
looking below at the millions
and right there in front of Dick Clark
and everyone he announces out loud
how much people depend on virtual communities

and suddenly I am there with my cock in my hand
and we are all there caught cock handed and dumb-founded
porn and gore news chi-ching in our eyes like
the casinos they put up all over the state
to rob the poor my father says
but mom knows they can't manage their own money anyway
better to just take it and take care of things from the counter

but don't you think, says Carson
it is some kind of sign
this reaching out for human contact
dancing in matching hats the whole crowd red with Chevy
Chevy Chevy
from down the street the skinny news woman
takes a little poll
who're you going to kiss at the strike of twelve
family
friends
lovers
strangers?
and these girls here, they just want you Carson
and he says
"I will take them all"
they blow kisses
as news girl provides the sound
Carson counts candy cash during the commercial break
for some other car or truck
my mother wonders
why they did not pass out hats

12:02 my husband makes his way over to my chair
we kiss upside down
it has been a good year
now lets go giddey up
find me someone new to adore
and god forbid my dreams come true no no no
don't you steal my dreams
don't punish me with the wildest
fuck, I don't think my body can bend that way