nothing

So many lies
How is one to know the truth
Which reality is real,
Which "reality" fake
You overestimate me
You overestimate my ability to decipher

You play the role
You hurt me
Then you soothe me
and over again

You look me in the eye
When i'm vulnerable and ready and willing to, and tell me i don't have to beg
Then you sit at your keyboard and order me to

You look me in the eye and tell me you dont want me
But when i leave your call beckons everywhere

You tell me one thing and mean another
It's only by your logic that you would resent me for it

How can I succumb?
I try and you stop me
I leave and you pull me
What the fuck do you want?
Say it and it's yours
or leave me be

This cloak always
Look me in the eye and say what you feel
Kind or cruel
or leave me be

How can i trust you?
put myself in your care?
I can barely depend on me
But you have shown me nothing but confusion
love, passion, pain, hatred

I love you, I admit
More than i've ever loved
More emotion than i've ever felt
I care, always, but never like this

But this, the first time I ever care enough to find a way in
You lead me on
Take what you crave
And lock me out

"Just like all the others", you tell me
"Yes, you are" i retort.

Your shallowness hidden in verse
Hidden behind those sincere eyes
Your true nature come to daylight
Cracks through the literary armor
Truth, bitter truth in your tone
After you've taken what you wanted

Lover, friend, tormentor
nothing