nothing like it

The one time he called from work
and I said,

Baby I stuck a dildo in my ass today.
and he said
Why did you do that baby?

And so I tell him
because I wanted to be able to say this to you,
Baby, I stuck a dildo in my ass today
so are you proud of me?
I wanted to see if I could
and I could.
I took it all in
just for you
you know
and I held the plug in massager to the plastic
it felt like you with a jack hammer baby drilling me in and
my body shook
like marble under a chisel
being driven by a metal mallet

and baby when you gonna fuck my ass
it's been since December I first asked?

So then he says
did you like it

and what's not to like
all fours crab walk style
lowering myself onto this hollow plastic cock
sure as hell beats watchin' soaps or Oprah

and I told him
baby I love you
and I told him
thank you for calling me

but I did not tell him
about the white iridescent cock
covered in shit and oil
how I held it under the sink
where my children brush their teeth
soaping it up good, running my fingers along
the molded veins, in the cracks
where shit tends to stick

goddamn there is nothing like that smell
shit and soap
and emptiness