O Goddess

When I last gazed upon your face.
I thought my life was turning ‘round.
Since then I’ve been put in my place.
My life has been turned upside down.

All of my direction and drive,
I had when with you is now gone.
My sense of purpose has now died
Just where the fuck did I go wrong?

I try to plan for the future,
And start to lose my fucking mind.
I can’t seem to take back control,
The hands at the wheel are not mine.

I try to see my destiny,
And find out where I am going,
But damn it, life won’t let me breathe,
And my troubles just keep growing.

Why can’t I sleep, why can’t I dream?
What is this shit supposed to mean?

All I want is to settle down,
And lay my weary head to rest,
And let a smile replace my frown,
And let life turn out for the best.

I stare into my dim future,
And a blank fog stares back at me.
Will I ever be in control?
Just when the fuck will I be free?

There are times that I feel as though
My heart might simply fucking pop,
Oh please, o Goddess, tell me when
This loneliness will ever stop.

I still recall the way you laughed,
The way you made me feel secure.
But now that life is in my past.
I’ll really miss you, that’s for sure.

But it’s my life. Now is my time.
Now stand ye back and watch me shine.