One Night, of 20 years!

How it happened: - laid on the floor, by a roaring fire, he’s on his back, her straddling him – fully clothed at this point. She’s gently kissing his face, his neck, his lips, his chest.

HIM:
So this is forbidden?
Well what did you say?
How did you fool him?
How did you get away?

HER:
I didn’t tell him anything,
He presumes, I’m with friends,
And I won’t say anything,
After tonight ends.

HIM:
So why are you here?……….
Kissing my lips?
Why aren’t you there?
Tormenting him, with these hips?

HER:
Look, it’s a thing I needed to find out,
After all of this time,
If what I felt 20 years ago,
Could really have been mine.

HIM:
Back then we were, young!
Naïve, unaware of real emotion
Your telling me you had feelings?
What, friendship, love or devotion?

HER:
Yes way back when,
We were only very young,
I saw you meet your first girlfriend.
And how the jealousy clung.

I watched your relationships from afar.
As a friend of a friend,
Seeing you through each one.
Hoping it was my turn, when it would end.

HIM:
If I’m honest what I noticed
Were your blue eyes and your tiny ass.
And that as that friend of a friend,
You were out of my class.

So why are you here?
Telling and kissing me now?
Showing these emotions?
And leading me through the ‘how’

HER:
I fell in love,
You didn’t notice, till you saw me a year or so ago.
Then I saw the look in your eye,
How I have changed and want to grow.

I know nothing can happen,
Between you and I.
I have a ten-year relationship.
And I’m sure he’s THE guy.

But at times it just happens,
And I have a feeling, a need to assure.
I’m not just someone’s partner.
I’m still a woman and more.

HIM:
So tonight will be a one off?
And we won’t end up in bed?
We’ll just talk and kiss and feel loved.
But there’s so much that needs to be said.

HER:
No there isn’t,
We can see it all, when we look in our eyes,
We don’t need to be that physical.
I’ll keep up my disguise.

That tonight if I were as single,
As you are, here alone.
I would be thinking of you and me naked together,
And not how I’ll get home.

But that can't happen,
I couldn’t live with that guilt.
So just enjoy being close for one night.
Think of the bridges we have built.

Think of what might have been,
If we’d spoke, long long ago.
About the feelings we had and,
What could have been, that now we really know

I’m being a little presumptive
You’ve not really said how you feel.
Should I shut up and go?
Shatter my dream so real?

HIM:
No don’t you leave me now,
There’s so much to say,
Would one night, only you and I know hurt?
Could I tempt you to stay?

Can I tell you about times?
When I looked admiringly at you
And had sensations inside.
That only I knew.

Can I tell you about knowing?
That when you moved abroad.
I felt like I’d lost a friend and more,
There was no more accord.

I’d heard you had come back,
But you were doing your own thing.
Over time met a guy,
Did I hear a mention of a ring?

Found yourself a little,
While you were away.
Flowered and blossomed
Brought more sunshine to your day.

Changed to your out look
Even developed in your self
Done a little partying,
Got yourself off the shelf!

Over time found a man
Settled down and got courted
Heard reports from friends
Your life was going ahead and quite sorted.

Didn’t see you for years.
But when we did my thoughts were ‘WOW’
From that young, shy, skinny girl
To that stunning woman that you are right now.

Oh I took it all on board,
The confidence you had gained,
The things that life brought to you,
And with time how you’d changed.

And from that day to this
I’ve thought of you a lot.
But known you were with someone,
But still considered you –hot.

So what I’m saying to you
Right at this point, in the here and now.
Is I had those feelings too
But, timing was never right, how?

So what do we do now?
What happens from now on?
Are you stopping here with me tonight?
Or will you be gone.

HER:
You know I’m with a guy I really love,
But though I want it and I’m tempted
Just know I’ve always loved you.
Though we cant really affect it.

Just know now that as I kiss you
You have always been in my heart,
As I’ve travelled the world,
You’ve been with me, in part.

Please don’t look on tonight,
As a missed opportunity for a fuck.
Let it warm your heart, melancholically
At all the missed luck

That timings were way out
For at least the last 20 years,
And know that someone still loves you.
If ever your eyes turn to tears.

And if I can get to be there for you,
If ever good times turn bad.
I’ll tell you that I love you,
Comfort you and help you not be sad.

Know you have a good friend
For the rest of our years.
Know that I love you.
But over me, don’t shed any tears.

I’m with a special someone,
Who does give me everything I need.
First in my priorities.
The one that helped me succeed.

But just so you’re aware,
I need to tell it straight and true,
That if we’d said our thoughts and got the timing right
It would have been you.

So for this moment, hold and kiss me,
Because after years of idle thoughts of you,
I now know what I wanted,
If we’d spoken up, could have been true.

And I promise you at some other time.
One day we will make love.
Even if we are old and grey,
It could still be you….. And I ……And our Love.