Addiction is a hole of lack; something is missing.
I must do, have or be more.
In this pit of sadness and remorse, I am never enough.
Never reached and never understood.
Separation is pain; an ache of the soul.
Longing for something to soothe the wounds of fear
In isolation, so no other knows. the vice taunts, tempts, and haunts me by promising to numb the pain.
It seems to work, so I fight for more but, it always drops me deeper into misery and isolation again!
Disguised as comfort, she calls like a siren; promising relief but, leaving more scars.
This stealthy ally which I once thought helped me through, was always an enemy who easily conquered me as her fool.
The Truth is a light in this darkness, shining on my evil friend.
It reveals I was hypnotized, in a trance, only seemingly under her control.
It began in a moment of discontent, when I searched outside for answers only found within.
When confused by the shadows I somehow fell in.
But wait! There is no hole – nothing missing – no more to do, say or be.
I was simply disconnected by the vice.
I do have the strength to make it just for today.
This journey of life is not to be taken alone some burdens are meant be shared.
I must be humble -simply ask and the strength is mine.
When willing, I am set free of my cares.
Some shadows are tricky – my foe wants me back.
Disguised and cunning – yet comfortable and appealing.
I forget who she is and fall to her poison again!
But this time is different – I remember the Light...
Addiction is no friend and I no longer her fool.
No longer depleting who I am.
I choose Truth; and just for this day, I am saved again!
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Touching!
Very well written!
I liked it
Out of the Darkness means something different to me. As I read the poem, I couldn't help but imagine the addiction mentioned was cutting. Out of the Darkness is often used when speaking about suicide. It refers to the possibility that suicide helps a person get out of the darkness of mental illness they suffered in the physical world. It also refers to the survivors of failed suicide attempts. That eventually we will no longer want to complete suicide; that we will be able to move on with our life (I am still waiting for it). Finally Out of the Darkness refers to people who have lost loved ones to suicide. After a person dies in any manner, there is a period of darkness for the survivors. I have lost two siblings to suicide, and I believe the darkness after a suicide lasts longer than the darkness that comes after someone dies from an illness or even a car accident. I think it is because there are questions that will never be answered. When a person dies from an illness, the survivors know why. When a drunk driver kills someone, the survivors know why... The drunk person was incredibly irresponsible. I will never know why my siblings chose that last day as their last day. I know my siblings were ill, but they were ill for years,so what specifically happened on that day that made them decide to complete suicide? I can never answer all the questions about that last day.The note left behind by one of my siblings gave some insight, but there are still questions. That is why I personally believe that the darkness after a suicide lasts longer than other manners of death. Thank you for sharing this poem and thanks for allowing me to comment.more...
A good dive below the dark waters of addiction...
...and luckily, resurfacing at the end. Several of the lines in the poem are searing, starting with the first pun, "Addiction is a hole of lack." It does well bringing out the feelings of trying to fill a black hole, an un-fillable void, in straightforward language, easily accessed. And for many addicts, sadly, the second half of the poem never comes about, does it?more...
Very Real
This struck a chord and hit all the notes perfectly.
Addiction is frightening. You cast light on its wretched carnivorous face in a powerful yet down to earth way. It hit me personally for reasons that are my own. "A hole of lack." What a unique and fitting way to put it. That hole is one that addiction itself chews into us. You illustrated this. Line after line it was clear that you understood the horrible power and allure, the sheer temptation of an addiction. The sad cycle it puts us through. The struggle everyday to resist and allow the hole to close, lest it be opened more and more and more.
This had a down to earth feel to it, which I really liked. The imagery was very fitting and gripping. The tone was right, one of constant self question, constant reassurance, and seemingly never ending struggle.
Very well done here.more...
I see the light
Excellent!
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