People Depend On Me

The moon is hidden
The night is cold
I sit on my bed
Thinking of how to be bold.

I sit on my bed
Wishing I was dead
I sit on my bed
Wishing for a bullet in my head.

I wonder about all the things
I could and should have done.
I wonder about all the things
That are now all long gone.

I wish I was dead
Put into the ground
I wish I was dead
To be never again make a sound.

I wish I would be able to stop myself
From causing another fight
I wish I could help myself
Instead, I take flight.

I know that I will wake up tomorrow
And be the cause of much stress
I know that I will wake up tomorrow
And eliminate some mess.

I know that I have friends that need me
So I feel I must stay
I know I have people that depend on me
And I know what I must once again say.

I must say that I am happy.
I must say that I am proud.
I must say that I will help.
I must say that I will not become a shroud.

I know that I must try
To stabilize other's lives
But sometimes, all I can do is cry
And try to stay away from knives.

I go to sleep each night
Wishing I was gone.
But I wake up each morning
Knowing I must be strong.

Because when you have people that depend on you
It always takes a toll.
But when people depend on you,
You will not want to go into that hole.

When people depend on you,
You want to stay alive.
When people depend on you,
You know you won't take that dive.