Possession ~ redone

A/N: this is the poem-version of my story Possession… perhaps a bit too corny, but I hope you enjoy it nevertheless!

And comments = appreciated ;)

All I ever wanted
was reaching stars in the sky.
I refused all of your help,
never wanted your advise.

I slapped the hand away,
that you had extended for me.
I told you, I cursed and I blamed you
I screamed that I was free.

I didn’t want your protection,
never needed any support.
Now I look at my reflection
and see my eyes grew cold.

Realization hits me
and sweeps me off my feet.
It knocks me to my knees,
directly in your reach.

I flinch away, your hand tenses up
I know I probably deserve the slap.
Correction is needed where obedience fails
I silently wait, I would never wail.

Defiance spreads through my body and grows,
I’m frustrated I couldn’t make it on my own.
I wanted to prove I didn’t need you to survive
now though I’m back on my knees by your side.

Surrender yourself, you lull me in
Give all of yourself to my will.
I try to resist, but I know it’s futile
And slowly I bow my head and rest still.

Inside I fight with my soul and my mind.
One tells me to give up,
the other to fight.

I desperately try to be strong
and pretend I’m not afraid.
But then I realize that it’s wrong
and whisper that I am scared.

Your silence is intimidating
and I fear there will be rejection.
Instead, you bend down and cup my face in your palm
and I feel that there is protection.

Ever so softly I hear you speak.
You murmur you want me complete,
and then you want even more.
But you won’t fight for my core.

My house of cards begins to fall
I don’t have any sway.
But the weakness inside me betrays all my strength
and I cannot turn away.

Please, Master I whisper
guide me in the dark.
Lead me when I cannot find the right path.

I hear the rustling of patent leather and steel
before the delicate pressure is all that I feel.
I close my eyes and relish its hold
the gentle comfort heats the cold
that had hooded my eyes
kept me in disguise.

All I ever wanted was reaching stars in the sky
and now I feel your guidance, sense you right by my side.
You raise me up, then pull me back
then draw me close and I completely forget

that all I ever wanted was reaching stars in the sky,
all I can now remember is kneeling by your side.