Lost deep in my thoughts of you this morning I realize these things:
I can only top you because I know deep down, I could never really dominate you. You are the epitome of the strong, powerful man. You have owned me completely and to some extent, you still do. I am yours and a part of me will always be yours. In a grand act of submission to you, I have warmed to the idea of brutalizing you. Using you, humiliating you, taking control away from you and making you mine even only for a time. I want to break you, I want to make you realize how much you need me. You want me to be yours. You want to be mine. You know that I am the only woman who could ever fulfill all of your needs, wants and darkest desires. In me, you find everything you need. You are completed by me. I couldn't cum with him because he is weak. I can't play with him as I would you. I can't lose control with him as I can you. I can't give all of me to him. You understand this because you can't give her all of you either. There is a barrier between you. With us there are no walls, no barriers. You are mine and I am yours. I want every piece of you and I want to be yours. I want to fulfill all your fantasies, I want to be your world. The bond between us, after all this time, it frightens you, it worries you. You are as consumed with thoughts of me as I am with thoughts of you. I'm riding another man's cock and all I can think of is how badly I want to be bound before you, for your pleasure, to whip and torment and control how I want your cum in my cunt, in my mouth and in my ass. I want your essence dripping from my body, I want to revel in it, to relish the feel of your satisfaction all over my skin. I want the marks and bruises that come with being yours. I want the perfect pain that only you can administer. I need it, I crave it. My body aches for your sweet abuse. Make me yours, take me, keep me. Always.
And I in turn, will make you mine. I will grant you that sweet surrender at my feet. Be mine. Come to me and I will make it hurt. The precious pain you so desire, the torture you need.