Return me to me

Beaten down by the waves of pain
I search for relief any way I can
Alcohol, drugs, they get through for a while
But the pain.........still returns.

Darkness, emptiness, nervousness fills my day
How did this happen? Why won't it leave?
I try to cling to what I have, but find it gone
Sometimes I don't even want to wake.

Pain from the past, pain from now
So much pain I want it to end
Make the pain stop! I cry from inside
But each day it returns to beat me again.

I know there is hope, I know I'll come through
See this is a temporary state that I must overcome
Life gives us storms, tornadoes, and floods
But I remember.......He sees it all.

God why is it hard to call out to You now?
Why does my flesh resist my spirit's plea?
I know You can heal me and make this all better
You know where I stand and I must trust in You.

Get me out of this Lord, bring me back
Help me return to me, before all of this
Give me strength each day to face the trials
Hold me tight Lord, please never let me go.