sentimental still

she thought it was me
across the park in another state
ran over and gave “me” a hug
shouting my name
and the girl answered with
a wry smile, “I’m not her
but with hugs like that
I wish I was.”
so what does it mean,
if she still hugs me like that,
but I can’t feel it.

I thought it was her
disappearing in a rush
late as usual into the classroom in another school
and all I could do was gasp
and stare
knowing it was and wasn’t her
but praying for a moment
that it was.
so what does it mean
if I can’t breathe still,
when I see her,
but it’s not her.