Smile Again

byRavynMakalani©

It's getting dark, I step inside,
I mask the face I'd rather hide.
(I can't let them see me.)
I greet them all, fake smile on my face,
Pretending I belong in this place.
(They breathe for me.)
I look around, they laugh and joke.
Taking comfort in their lines of coke.
(What a party this is.)
He takes my hand, leads me upstairs,
Says he's the only one that cares.
(Should I be his?)
We enter the room, on the bed we lie.
With him still inside, I begin to cry.
(I don't want to be here.)
He whispers come back to me in a few years
And I will give you back your tears.
(This is everything I fear.)

Step outside (breath of air)
Realize that I do care.
I just wish that this would all end.
Maybe outside I could smile again.
Step outside (breath of air)
Realize that I do care.
I just wish that this would all end.
I need to be able to smile again.

It's getting dark, I step inside
It was the night my mother died.
(Should have stopped it...)
Sirens wailing, people asking me
What exactly did I see?
(...but I just dropped it.)
They sadly take my dad away,
And I don't know what to say.
(I can't breathe.)
Spent years wishing my mother was dead,
It reminds me of what that guy had said.



(I want to leave.)
He told me to come back in a few years,
He said he'd give me back my tears.
(I don't want to be here.)
So many questions eating me up like a cancer,
So many tears; but I don't know the answer!
(This is everything I fear.)

Step outside (breath of air)
Realize that I do care.
I just wish that this would all end.
Maybe outside I could smile again.
Step outside (breath of air)
Realize that I do care.
I just wish that this would all end.
I need to be able to smile again.

Why do I feel this way?
There's nothing left to say.
It's time for all this to end,
Once outside I'll smile again.
'Cuz we all need to get rid of the pain
So for the chance of staying sane
I turn to the outside.
(Run and hide.)
I feel too claustrophobic within these walls,
Setting me up for another fall.
It's time for all this to end,
And once outside I can smile again.

Step outside (breath of air)
Realize that I do care.
I just wish that this would all end.
Maybe outside I could smile again.
Step outside (breath of air)
Realize that I do care.
I just wish that this would all end.
I need to be able to smile again.

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