Sometimes

I die a thousand deaths in the time it takes you to answer the phone
And I know you don’t always want to talk to me
Not like yesterday, when all you wanted was the sound of my voice
I hate it

Just like I hate you,
Sometimes,
In the time that I’m dying between one ring and the next.

Now, you’re not gentle, easy on me, loving me quite blindly
You love me--I think, I hope, I pray--
But it’s more as an equal and less like the love of your life
I hate not being the love of your life

Just like I hate you,
Sometimes,
In the time that I’m dying between one ring and the next.

I wonder, “why couldn’t you have just left me alone?”
I was okay until you barged into my life
And made me care
I hate that

Just like I hate you,
Sometimes,
In the time that I’m dying between one ring and the next.

Some days, I look in the mirror and I wonder
“Am I not pretty enough?”
And some days I look inside me and I know I’m not.
I hate those days

Just like I hate you,
Sometimes,
In the time that I’m dying between one ring and the next.

I think, “I’m prettier than you are,”
And when you asked me if I thought you were shallow
I said, “No.”
I hate that I lied.

Just like I hate you,
Sometimes,
In the time that I’m dying between one ring and the next.

I used to respect you, but now I only need you because you made me
You’ve stopped giving me all the sweet things that made you
Different
I hate that you lied.

Just like I hate you,
Sometimes,
In the time that I’m dying between one ring and the next.

I hate you,
Every time,
That you don’t answer the phone
Because I’m dying here

Between
One Ring
And the next
I hate you

I’ll call you soon