Squeaky Shoes.

I remember when they all laughed,
when I wore squeaky shoes to his wake.

I laughed with them wearing rainbow hair,
wacky clothes and a painted face.

But I wasn't laughing with them,
I'm sure soon now you'll understand.

I laughed, because nobody,
fucking nobody, understood my plan.

They were laughing because I looked funny,
but I was laughing, at how he looked,

that night when I left him,
sizzled and cooked.

I know you didn't understand then,
it's the only thing that makes me feel bad.

Weeping with your daughter,
it hurt deeply that you looked so sad.

But your husband was in the way.
Have you ever heard Roy Orbison? In Dreams?

Well, a candy-colored clown called the Sandman,
tip-toed to your husband's room.

And twinkled dust into his lungs,
whispering, "Go to sleep, everything will be alright soon."

And that's not all it says.
Not by a fucking longshot. I want you to listen carefully.

"I close my eyes. Then I fall asleep to dream.
Dream of you."

In dreams, I walk with you.
In dreams, I talk to you.

In dreams, you're MINE.
ALL THE TIME."

Until I'm finished.
Until I'm done.

I know you can hear me.
I know you're the one.

I'm going to leave now, I know.
You and your daughter...will soon be waking

You're so beautiful.
It's hard to keep my voice from breaking.

We three have a long day tomorrow.
A big move ahead of us.

I'll be ever so happy,
a real family; all of us.

Until I'm finished.

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AUTHOR'S NOTES: This is spoken through the eyes of my creepy clown character, 'Beppo the Clown'. You should really check out 'In Dreams' by Roy Orbison, it's a great, great song.

The daughter is 18, don't worry.