still

The face i love
once dark with shadows
now has a shadow of pain
darkening it.

The eyes i love
once shining with desire
now have the sheen of
unshed tears.

pain i caused by my fearful silence
tears i caused by my tearful words

please forgive me
i love you
still
i did not know
i never would
please
you mean everything
still

tossing and turning
as the sleeples night
gives way to dawn

the day drags
life demands
and i plod on.
guilt and sadness swallow me
and i pray on
still.

one letter
in supplication; explanation.
own; atone;
leave it alone.
the process needs to be.
lesson learned.
let it go.

still...

a new day dawns
and i arise
fullfill my duties
go 'bout my business
and then --

the phone rings
the familiar tone
my heart leaps
The voice huskly low
"hello"
hope lives, love wins.
i am his.
still.