Still Saying Goodbye

I wrote this for a dear friend that passed away years ago. I miss you Zach.

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Still Saying Goodbye~

Even after all these years
The memories still remain
The soft smiles
The laughing fits
And walking in the rain
 
I seem to remember all the little things
And all the things we never said
I seem to remember all the details
Every freckle on your face
And every hair on your head

Things I never thought about before you were dead

You left me here
Alone and sad
A broken little girl
For only one more moment
I would trade the world

Looking back
Your words mean so much
So much I never understood
So much I took for granted
I would turn back time
If only I could

Even after all these years
It seems I'm still saying goodbye
There are days I fight the urge
The urge to weep and cry

I know you always wanted
For me to be strong and true
But sometimes it's hard
So hard to be that girl
If beside me there's no you

You were the light that made the day
The moon that lit the night
You were the one I could always turn to
The one I never had to fight

But in my blindness
In my selfishness
It's true
Somewhere along the line
I'd forgotten you

I seemed to miss all the little signs
All the things I took for granted
You cried for help
But my eyes and ears wouldn't hear
Wouldn't see

My world was slanted

And so with my silence
My self-absorbed ways
My unknowingly withheld hand
You took yourself from us all
In the most absolute way
And it was hard for me to breathe or stand

But even after all these years
Of regret
And of pain
I still remember all the little things
The happy moments
All the songs that we sang

I still remember your throaty laugh
The way you hugged me tight
I remember all our inside jokes
And all the ways you kept me light

You made my days worthwhile
And the dreams of my nights so sweet
Sometimes I just can't accept
That never again will you wake from sleep

Even after all these years
Of loving you
A memory
My other half
I still feel like I'm saying goodbye

And I'm still missing you