Submission

I’m kneeling before you in complete submission
 my heart is broken
but I’ve found strength in you
and I can pour this pain on you like
oil from Mary’s alabaster box
what I need is more love than peace
and right now I need to find that at your feet
all I can do is pray
I never understood the plan
but I’m leaving it in your hands now
maybe this was all to humble me
because I couldn’t be humble all on my own
and I still have this strength but the pride is gone
and I had to be knocked down to learn to stand up
so I can’t give up
and I won’t stop
or be silent anymore
let the circle be unbroken
and words once held fast
will be spoken
because I need to purge this rage
I hurts like hell
to tell
what I went through
but if I can’t
I’ll be forgotten
a statistic
and I can’t be that
I’ll be almost anything but that
sometimes I think nothing matters
but her eyes show me different
I can’t love myself not now
but I swear she still does
and I need that
I’m broken
but my heart is open
and I can finally admit
that I need to submit
and these tears don’t need to be shame
although sometimes the are
but they’re also pain cried in the name
of the woman who fought in vain.
and finally their just emotion that I denied to hard
and to long
I’m reaching out and crying out
to avoid dying
because as I live and breathe
I’m not alive
until I can fall in love with me
so here I am my heart is broken but I’m kneeling at your feet