Sweet Dreams

Black-winged panic swirling madly round inside my head
The shadows creeping closer, closing in around the bed
A single spot of light comes cutting through the gloom
Bringing tears to my eyes without lightening the room
Now he starts to whisper, so soft and very sweet
Curled into a ball now, hands gripping my own feet
The venom in his voice belies its soothing sound
Commanding crimes with a logic too profound
Eyes wide and staring, searching for somewhere to hide
He slowly takes me, makes me his, his own twisted bride
Murmuring threatening endearments ice cold and so unkind
Silent words like fingers tearing apart my fragile mind
Now the only dream I want to dream
Is of loving you all through each night
But the only dream that I can dream
Is of this darkened room with its smell of cunt
Where I crouch full of madness
Hands pressed to my ears and cry my heart out

The air is full of malice, suspicion and a taint of hate
Ice cold horror grips my heart, begging him to wait
His chorus now cajoling stretching my resistance thin
Christ how can you sleep through this unholy din
He is the Lord and master, king of the carrion flies
He is so compelling, twisting my thoughts into lies
Pictures of my own true lover being rutted like a whore
Free for the using, free for all upon the barroom floor
I twist and turn but I know there’s no way to escape
No way to avoid him, to forestall this awful rape
With the sun still below the horizon, I can’t resist his lie
And so it is my love, the time has come for you to die
Now the only dream I want to dream
Is of loving you all through each night
But the only dream that I can dream
Is of this darkened room with its smell of cunt
Where I crouch full of madness
Hold the pillow to your face until your life’s snuffed out

As the night creeps on, never reaching the pearly dawn
Tears streaming from my sightless eyes now that you are gone
All is darkness and silence but for a distant catch of song
Singing of sweet release, I know I won’t be here for long
I wander empty take the bottle down and drink until its dry
Lay beside your lifeless corpse and hold you as I cry
The coldness of your skin, it chills me right to the bone
Now at last he has his way, once again I am all alone
But I hear so faintly a very sweet, a very different sound
The memory of your laughter, brings me crashing to the ground
I can take no more I don’t even want to fucking think
I am just his plaything, used and then set adrift to sink
Now the only dream I want to dream
Is of loving you all through each night
But the only dream that I can dream
Is of this darkened room with its smell of cunt
Where I crouch full of madness
Open up my vein and let my life-blood out