The Cage of Me

I can't see a thing in this place
My eyes hurt from being held wide open to find light
They would get no relief however
They would never find light

I here the sound of metal dancing with metal in the distance
The room you lead me into feels damp
I can hear the sound of water dripping from all around me
Methodically you sit me down in a chair
The feel of it is like cold air when it first hits your lungs on a January night
I was holding onto you at this point as if you were my breath

Before I could blink you had tied my hands behind my back
And yet again behind the back of the chair
I can smell emptiness but cannot comprehend how big it is around me
Immediately I knew the only thing I needed near me was you
That thought plagued me with distorted comfort

I want to hear you breath
Hear your feet hit the floor
If only to feel your skin touch mine
I want to know in my heart that this of all things is not another dream

Do you want this
You ask as slowly as possible
In a voice that I have never even gotten close to hearing in real life
What is it that I should say to a question of that caliber
My thoughts are no longer my own
A small version of yes slips out of my mouth like a ghost from my soul
Nothing else would follow
Trust that I tried
Then again
Perhaps I didn't

I wonder for a moment what it must be like to be blind
What fear would life hold without sight
Dare I assume there would be no fears at all
I try to focus all my strength on one of my senses
This practice seems to only take away from the angst I was beginning to enjoy

I listen
My head extends foolishly as if it will help my ears
I try to feel
The first thing to hit me is the smell of your perfume

You knew I loved Liz
That wonderful yellow bottle
How much I loved the smell on you even more the second day
You were so close now my mouth began to water
If only this thirst I could quench

Before I could catch my breath you ran your nails across my face
I think I let out a sound but I couldn't be sure
I pushed my body out to where I thought you would be
Nothing
Again
Nothing

Before I could regain anything your mouth was right next to my ear
The whisper spoken ran a stream of pleasurable pain down the left side of my body
I tried to say something but speech was no longer an option
I was yours
And I had not a care in the world as to what that would mean later

You sat on my lap and I could feel the leather of your pants against my leg
Leather pants
I thought this silently to myself
Could life get any better
Then you parted my lips with your tongue
My question.....
Answered

The kiss drained my inner being
It left me a shell of a human wanting only you
It left me with no choices
It left me with an uncontrollable smile
One that you felt the need to smack away

You knelt down softly in front of me
Untied the rope behind me
Lit one candle on the table that was next to me

My hands rushed to either side of your face
Your leather pants stained by the light of the fire
I skin tight white T-shirt clung to your skin for dear life
I of course followed its lead
But would soon find out that this game was far from over

With a strangers force you took the back of my head into your hands
Your fingers lost in my hair you began to pull
Our eyes met
I knew then the tables were meant to be turned

This was all for you
Giving me the hints that lead to the world that I could never understand in you
Without a second thought I put my hands firmly on your hips
I threw you to the floor
You exhaled a slight breath and held your eyes shut tight

I finally saw what had puzzled my ears only moments earlier
The sound that I knew was metal
But not sure in what shape
In front of me there was a bed
Draped in all white
I recall telling you of this fantasy
I let myself discover that dreams can come true

It was made from cast iron
It was as black and the room we stood in
I still hadn't figured out where we were and I thrived on it
There were white silk sheets that covered the canopy
Blacks satin sheets on the bed
And what seemed like hundreds of pillows scattered from the bed to the floor

You had handcuffs on all four bed posts
I was humiliated in that moment that you had to do all of this for me
Ashamed that you left nothing to chance
Thrilled that my insecurity only made me want this more

You fought me to the distance of the bed
Each battle you attempted doubled whatever strength I had
I lived for the fight
And the struggle only enhanced the hunt

First a hand and then a foot
I had you in the trap you planed and I thought of
You were my prisoner
And as your capture
I was fully prepared to make your every wish come true

I stood over you
Comparing your position to the similarities of a caged animal
As you thrashed and moaned
Both of us knowing that in truth you loved where you were
Yet in this moment you lost all of what is human in you
It fell from your eyes like a tear

As for myself
I was reborn into a world that you had always wanted me to see
One that not all may understand
One that I never could until now
Seeing you lie there I couldn't help but feel that I had all the power in the world
That's what this was about wasn't it
Knowing that I could raise your whole body with the touch of a finger tip

You struggle against the cuffs
They battled with the iron posts of the bed
I took a satin pillow case off and turned it into a blind fold
So unfair to think you knew this place in the light
And I needed you to feel for a moment what I felt for so long

I tied it tight upon you
I positioned myself no more than an inch from your mouth
Barley touching my lips to yours I backed away
It was too soon to let you actually feel anything
To soon to give you what you wanted

I noticed more candles on either side of the bed
I took my time lighting each one as I know you would want me to do
You didn't say a word
And I didn't want to listen if you did

When I approached the left side of the bed I noticed a a silver table
Full of objects that shined in the candle light
The first thing to catch my eye was your knife
How appropriate I thought
How else was I to remove your clothes

I stood deathly still for a moment
Watching your chest rise and fall
Not wanting you to know how close I was to your body
Hoping I was performing well enough for you

I slid your shirt just above your stomach
I ran the knife along the length of your hips
Watched as it disappeared down your pants
My heart ached when I heard the noise you made

Realizing this wasn't all for you
I went ever so slowly
Tracing the outline of your perfect body
I needed this now just as much as you

I slit the shirt open from the top to bottom
I didn't know if I was going to make it after that
I didn't know if I could still hold on
You looked like an angel in that moment
I expected to see your wings at any time

The pants would have to stay on as I continued this game
Knowing now that your every part had to be mine
I would claim all that you were
On this night
I would make you do things I never knew I wanted you to do

A storm of emotion took me over
I could not stop looking
At you
Through you
In you
My eyes no longer run by my mind

I wanted to hurt you
Make you see that I had it in me all this time
Let you in on the secret I kept even from you
Let you feel what I performed in my mind

To the knife again I removed the bra that was never there in the first place
I could see how anxious you were becoming
This made my movements all the more laxed and intense
I watched as you pressed up against the blade
Delighted to see the sight of your blood

Could you know
Did you do this on purpose
Or had you still not a clue
I continued

The blood ran down the center of your body
A stream that looked like the loan vein of your life
Again I couldn't take my eyes off of it
That part of you
Can anything ever be so pure

I moved inbetween your torn apart legs
In that time it had almost reached the crest of your pants
I noticed all the smooth dips and curves of your body
wishing that I could pain t this perfection

I ran my fingers down the sides of your breasts
Then down the sides of your stomach to your hips
Immediately you ached your body up to me
I met the blood followed by the wound with my lips

I could barley hear you screaming
Everything in this world drowned out by lust
I tasted
I dreamt
I believe I may have even died briefly

You strained so hard against your restraints
It made me wish I had opened my eyes earlier
I loved seeing you do this

You were on your elbows
Your breasts facing the wall behind you
It was as if you entire midsection was reaching out for a God it would never find
To your neck I proceeded with caution

Like the perfect chorus to the perfect song
My teeth entered your neck
Waves of bliss overtaking both of our bodies
At last we discovered the word one

The more I drank the more you gave in
The more you gave in the more I learned of death
What we had both wanted for so long
The end of the beginning for us will forever exist in the land of never more.

My pen is my sword
Although it may not always be as sharp as I wish
It will always make me bleed
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