The Lip Of Lunacy

Empty words echo through my head-
Things I might have read,
Things I never said.
Too much time
I've let slip away
Without doing anything.
I'm so disconnected;
Reality has become so distant
And any grip I have is quickly loosening.
I keep thinking
That there will be someone there for me,
Someone to reach out
And pull me from these murky depths.
Instead, I sink further and further from the surface,
Never thinking
That maybe it's at the bottom
Where I belong.
I've been looking for a way in
For so long
That I can't remember anymore
Where I sought entrance.
So far on the outside
And I know I'll never make it back,
But there's no further to go
When I'm standing on the edge.
Silence screams
In the middle of the night
And the past plays on the walls
And I'm so caught up in the show
That I'm missing the present
Pressing up against me
As if a jilted lover.
None of it makes sense-
None of this makesany sense,
Just words pouring through my head
And stopping at my lips,
So not to admit my madness.
It all rolls through my head,
Over and over,
An enchanting rhythm of empty words
Slowly driving me insane.