The Ode Of Reflection

It's a time of reflection for me
I wonder if Julie even cares or thinks about me?
Quite possibly I have become simply a memory for her
Nothing more.
I carry on loving and missing her
It hurts like the deepest wound.

I often think about her and many a time
My tears flood my cheeks as I truly know now I am alone
Yes my friends are here but Love is not
Its ok, all I have is these dreams and this melancholy

I felt myself slipping into old customs and old ways
Need to refocus again.
Drinking will not salve my pain.
Its time once again to reclaim
The constant thoughts of Julie and my anger at Quarry
Are simply not healthy
Its time to find ways to combat, survive and revive.