This Lesson Goes Unlearned

Words move vibrate and mingle
Loving hands make my skin
Tingle with new meanings for us
But what of love and lust
And deciding which we have
Slowly I uncover
But beneath it all there is no other
Just faded passion and no time
But despite your insistence
Weeks after the night
You're still in absence
And I wonder what I did

Time again for the question
But not in essence
I know I've heard this lesson
Aesop told me once about a bone
But despite his warnings
I sit alone and ponder
What you could have meant
Things are different now
My penance
Has been said
Numerous times and yet I wait
For possible answers
Nightmares fly and intangible still
But I hear them clop and
In my ears the ringing won't stop
How could I know
What little you did show
And then my exasperation
Meets a greasy end

I try to find ways to make
It known that you were not
Just another pansy in the garden
One more curb I could not conquer
Simple these matters seem
Rise in bile but all this means
Until in vain I try to achieve
Something more with my leaves
Flowering hopes and dreams
And you've yet to shine a light

Fingering the ends of tassels
I close my eyes and still
The pressure mounting behind my eyes
Makes me burn from inside
Covering the pages
With spit marks and saliva
In attempt to write tales
I find no headway but that
Of a lovelier you and
More patient me
Finding birds disjointed
Closing the slit of a window
Where spiders gather behind glass
Doors and houses
Jumble of marbling opals
Rocks are in my mouth
Patience draining
The ides were raining
When you said nothing
But unfinished thoughts
Statements retracted
This end has been enacted
Prior to this devastation
Locusts hum
And who could not hear
The rolling of drums
Followed by the crash of chaos

And my lesson goes unlearned still