To Keep Me Falling Apart

Atomic split of shattered fragments,
so close to you, but still not touching you.
Crazed, manic, and twice fainting
before you got started.

The illness, the noise, the crush,
under 107 degrees of torture,
praying to stay alive long enough
to hear the revelation.

By the time I heard the words
that spelled out "THIS IS REAL",
and after your eyes found mine,
and the oddities of connection
of stumbling over lines,
and you still didn't find me,
my body was nearly broken,
and my soul was absolutely shattered.

No time to think,
needed to catch the first plane,
rushed out to start my long drive,
turned my head once more to see
that you stood a moment longer.
As I stopped, you turned and walked away.

I didn't think it was possible,
this excessive pain and frailty...
I thought the pieces of me much too small
to ever break again.

But again, you proved you know how
to keep me falling apart...