Tormenting Pleasures

Tormenting pleasures

Tormenting pleasures rip at my soul
Would you please get the fuck out?
My mind, my heart-
I don’t think they’ll withstand much more.
These tormenting pleasures are tearing me apart.

Embracing loneliness tightens its hold
I am suffocating slowly in your arms
I can’t move, I can’t breathe
What do I need to prove to you?
Your tender embraces are such a tease.

Prolonged one-night stands push me down
Our time together means so much
Yet you shrug it off
Are you that unable to care again?
Or am I just that insignificant?

Deceiving truths laugh in my face
You tell me we are merely friends
Then your kiss must be lying
How can you say, “If something happens?”
It already has.

Comforting heartache gives me hope
Maybe I should just be patient
Push aside doubt
I see it in your eyes, feel it in your touch
You’re just as scared as I am.

But you’re too selfish to admit it.
You’re too weak to even try.
So fuck you-
You’ll never again make me cry.