Tortured Soul 3

Something I want but I dare not take
Burning my heart whenever I awake
Wanting to touch but I don’t dare
Cursing my life that is very unfair
Wishing I hadn’t let go that day long past
Wondering how long this pain will last
Searching for something to fill this gap
Knowing the answer won’t fall in my lap
Debating where I should go from here
Since losing control is what I fear
Beating myself for what I desire
Trying to extinguish this damned fire
Looking for ways to stay in check
Always avoiding the thought "what the heck"
Keeping these feelings locked deep inside