Underlying the Affair

My thoughts go back just such a short time
But now you have come to mean so much
You've become first in these thoughts of mine
With your heart, your head, your wonderful touch

And on you my thoughts have tarried

When I stop to get coffee I think of the morning
We spent in the Café at Saranac
Growing closer, writing, laughing, learning
The other couple wishing to get that back

Asked us how long we've been married

While swimming my laps I think of the day
You, she, and I played in the lake
Like teens, and you snatched my swim suit away
And then double sweetness for this lucky old rake

As you happily shared your old friend with your new

At night sometimes when I start to wake up
And turn on to my back, longing and aching
Wishing you there, laying on top
Like you did that first morning of our lovemaking

Whispering love 'til the passion renewed

Long morning breakfast, afternoon boating
Our first full day after wonderful night
Like a honeymoon, holding, kissing, doting
Eyes open loving, deep, long, and right

That last time, did they? Yes, our hearts touched

Yet under the happiness of our trysts
Sometimes deeper and sometimes much nearer
Lies an inherent unhappiness
As our affair gets stronger and dearer

That there can't be a lifetime of memories for us