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You want despair
And to pitch a fit
Another disappointment
Has hit that list.

Do I love to hard?
Do I give too much?
What is it about me
That's dangerous enough
To look, but not touch?

What's with the game's
That you all play?
"I love You!" you screamed in anger
As you drove away.

But tomorrow is another day
"So can you pack up your heart
And just store it away."
"Its okay" he promised
"You can pull it out later"

"Adore me",
"Worship me"
Make me a man!
All I ever did was follow
Your demand.

I just don't get it
I really don't
Is there something wrong
With a heart that floats.

Don't ask for it baby
Don't tell me your needs
Then take it away
Cause your friends full of greed.

We were okay You and I
We really were.
Cause it was an equal kind love
With so much in store
Till the day he turned up
And knocked on your door.

The seed was planted
The wedge driven right in
Jesus I warned you
He was jealous as sin.

What is so wrong with loving
Using mind body and soul
T'was you who chipped at the ice
Now you want me to be cold?

Well go and get fucked
One thing you showed me
My heart isn't frozen, it isnt cold
It's been warmed on the inside
With passions untold.

You shared so much with me
We opened each other
It was honest when I told you
I've never felt this with another.

Yes my heart is free
To wonder the earth
To roam and explore
To expand in girth.

There has to be someone out there
Who loves like I do
With nothing to spare
If not what's the point?
But to live a half life
Shared with moments and a friend called despair.

Yes it hurts
That you now don't want me
But if that's the case
You need to leave me be.

Stop coming back
My door doesn't swing
It doesn't revolve
God how many times did we do this
When we were involved.

Friendship can't work
No... Not with us...
Not when it takes just a look
The smell of your skin and the hint of a touch.

It's too hard for me
And you can't resist
The smile in my eyes
And the lure of just one quick kiss.

Go on home to illusions so grand.
Let me be the woman inside
That can take this stand.

Let me please,
Let you go
Just walk away
Don't reach for my hand
Don't make this harder for me to withstand.

"Am I okay" you asked
as you held me close
"Yes" I replied
As you nibbled my throat.

Ten months with you
And the Ice Queen I was
Till you chipped it away
Leaving dew instead of frost.

I should be crying
Hating you so much
Warning women,
"Danger Beware"
But suddenly I feel like
I just don't care.

I know I do
For if I don't
What we had together
Would be all ash and smoke.

Where's my Man?
The one made for me?
The one strong enough
To handle all 5f 6 of me?

Why are people
So scared of love?
It's such a gift
Of honesty and trust
But its mocked and scorned
And replaced with simple lust.

Show me my man
The one promised to me.

Dear God,
I'm hanging in there
doing as you asked,
But how much longer
Am I expected to last.

It's a lonely place
Here on your own
When what you desire
Is to make a real home.

To fill it with
Happiness, faith and hope
It's not so wrong
So don't be skeptical folks

What's wrong in this world
When we are told,
That love doesn't exist
Beyond being one year old.

The powers that be
Please change it all
Some of us out here
Enjoy that fall.

Open your minds
Your hearts and your eyes
To women the world over
And how much they cry.

For every tear
That hits the ground
Is not shed in sadness
But for a memory of a love once found.

Without the sharing
The love and the faith.
What are we really
But toxic waste.

Don't infect me with your attitude,
I'd rather be hurt
Then to not love and care
To not ever have felt
that just once for a while
I was part of a pair.

I have no regrets
No harsh words for you
But thank you for letting
My heart be true.

You smashed down my walls
And it's secured in place
To be the Ice Queen
No never again, i can't go back
What a waste of my life
to be lost in such a place......