What Happens Now

What happens now,
That the trust is gone,
The care isnt there,
And you’ve broken my heart?
Do you remember when
We used to be happy
We used to be carefree?
What happen to those good old days
When we were only one
Not two separate beings
Oh, how I long for those good old days
When my heart
Was in only one piece
Not scattered around my chest
Like an old jig saw puzzle
Carelessly taken apart
When you held me close
On those long lonely nights
When you cared that there was…..
A pain in my heart
Tears on my face
On the slightess sadness in my soul
Sometimes I wonder
If you feel the same
There are days I wish
For you to come back to me
But I know
Even if you were to return to me
Things wouldn’t and couldn’t
Ever be the same
My heart would still know
And ache with the pain you so carelessly inflicted
Upon my fragile soul
I know that
You’ll never feel
The way I do
The way I did
I can never forgive
And never forget
The heartless way you threw me away
You used me like a childs toy
Something that can be tossed aside
When youre done with the game
But my feeligns don’t come with an on and off switch
And the tears still flow
Even long after you’re gone
You can try all you want
To erase the pain
And delete the hurt
But you cant
Because its not just a smudge on a page
You might want with all your heart
To take back the words you said
And the actions you did
But life doesn’t have a rewind button
And the words you said
And the things you did
Are there to stay
And no amount of apology
Will make them go away
Now you say you’re sorry
And want to come back to me
What am I supposed to do
Take you back and get hurt again
Or walk away and never look back
My friends all tell me to leave you
While you beg me to stay
What should I do
What should I say
I gave my love away so foolishly before
And I swear
I’m never going to make that fatal mistake again
Im going to pick up the pieces to me heart
And just walk away
With whats left of my heart and soul
Tears roll gently down my face
Im so afraid to look back
Out of fear I might stay
My friends all cheer
Say I did the right thing
But my heart………
It doesn’t agree
It thinks I shouldn’t have left
That I should go back
That I shouldn’t have left my love
Standing there all by himself
Yes I know
That chances are
He would have hurt me again
That he would break my heart
Even worse this time
And the shards would shatter to the four corners of the universe
Leaving me incapable of loving or trusting anymore
But what am I missing
By being here by myself
And not there in his arms
Am I missing the chance
To be with my one true love
Or am I walking away from the false hope of romance
And the nonexistent chance of happiness
I guess ill never know
What could have been
If only id stayed
Because I'm going to keep away as far as possible
From him for the rest of my life
I'm sure the day will come
When ill get over him
Forget the pain he caused my heart
And forgive the way he betrayed my trust
But ill have to believe
Until that day comes
That my friends are correct
And I did the right thing
I guess ill just sit in my room
Ill think about
What you’ve done
And contemplate my reactions
Ill relive the past
And dream of the future
Let the tears roll down
And wait
Just wait
For my heart to heal
For the rift in my soul to finally seal
And for that fateful day
When I can once again
Open my heart and soul letting the world in
When ill be able to trust and care once more
But most of all
Ill wait for it to not hurt anymore