What it's worth

I feel like I'm caught in a whirlpool
It's like I'm spinning down the drain
Every time I get back on my feet
I slip and go spinning down again
It seems like I'm all alone
Like there's no one to turn to
If I met me on the street I'd say "I don't want to know you"
I haven't always been as you see me now
I haven't always been this way
My skies were clear and blue
Now it's all gone dark and grey
I used to enjoy my life
I was fun to be around
Now though I don't know why
I just can't stop this spinning down
There must be something wrong with me
Or the evil one has my soul
Sometimes it's plain to see
Down which pathway I should go
But then somewhere along the way
I go somewhere I shouldn't go
If this is to be my destiny
Then you can all go fucking blow
I didn't want to cause pain
Or to be the source of strife
But it feels like that and more
Dominates my life
I want to do what's right
I really want to stand proud
But every time I try
I end up talking shit too loud
I'm running out of time
I know it's getting short
I just hope that when it's over
That what it cost is what it's worth