what should i do

Have I transformed?

Has this relationship taken a turn?

Evolved into something new

Something less then what I would have expected?

Not sure I'm who you adore anymore

If letting down your walls means

Sharing with me who you lust for

Then maybe I'm all for walls!

The walls I'm going to build around myself so I don't get hurt

Is this you meeting me on my level of sexual and intimate deprivation?

I turn to other methods to reach what I can't get with us

Without venturing outside of the relationship

Of course I prefer us to work out

And for those things not to have an effect with me

Knowing I can hardly get you up

You telling me who can get you erect is not us "bonding"

Where has this relationship gone?

At the stage in the game where I am questioning "maybe this is wrong?"

And now Im hesistant to share afraid to connect

We just don't seem to get it

We don't speak the same language, we are both too stubburn to learn

Because is it even worth it?

Is this even what we want?

It pains me at times to picture my life without you

But if we were not meant to be

I don't want our relationship to get in the way of the right thing

It's unhealthy

I'm not sure if you feel as I do

The pain in my heart when I look at you

Knowing we may never be right for one another

Oh how I wanted our hearts to fight for each other

But the void gets bigger

And I'm not sure what to do

You don't seem to care about getting much deeper

I feel lonely when I'm with you

We don't talk, you change the subject

We don't delve deeper

You prefer to live on the surface

And all along you wonder whats wrong

But deep down inside you know the truth

Ill never evolve into that soul mate for you

We wont grow old together

And settle down get married have kids

Not that i wanted these things now

But no longer are we too young for it

The clock is ticking and its frustrating not to know

Unsure of where our relationship will go