When I first told her about you

She told me
it is like a scene from one of his poems
you in the white lab coat
the gloves, the oils

like Mary Shelley in the "little ice age"
frozen inspiration creating new man
ice climb
electric pulse
there safe at her table
one candle
one cold castle summer
one moment of control

but here we are again
with one more confession drained into plastic
you reach for me from you chair,
hands twist from their bindings
just enough to touch my arm
please, please let me touch you

smack answered, baby we get what we come for
you came to be awakened, deprived, satisfied,
remembered, forgiven.
I will not speak of your sin
not even to you
I will find it hidden deep
your knees wide, clench teeth grimace
you will give it up to me freely
one hand on your thigh
I lean in whisper okay baby okay let it go
let it go, I will take it, let it go

try to ignore the posed family photos
in this unbearably empty house
two sickly puppies
caged, whimpering
still you pretend pretend with your brightly colored logo,
cavalier hands-free in your new leather seat lease
Mr. Power suit yes you will plead for mercy
you will weep and with this release
you will be free, you will be free
and for a moment, you will believe
as I pack my collection,
white coat into bag
as you quickly suck smoke into the empty spaces
before shame finds a way back in