Where Am I ?

Where am I ?
Caught in a whirlwind,
Change is ever present.
Happiness was once a familiar companion;
how quickly it has flown !

Sitting atop this dervish,
O when will it stop ?
Dizzy from the constant spinning,
elquilibrium, balance- they seem to
be extinct now.

How quickly the pendulum swung from
one end to the other;
When it will swing back once
more I know not.

He said he cared,
said he was a friend;
Why so forcefully did he bash
in the bonds of time, laughter,
hopes we dreamed of?

A month has since passed,
yet confusion reigns.
Anger has left, leaving in its
wake its companion Sadness.

So many things that could have been,
would have been.
Troubles to be eased and bridged
as they came.

A vulnerable spirit betrayed,
now hardened.
An ache remains,
always there,always felt;
the wound will not close.

Searching for answers, finding none.
Some questions will remain thus : Questions.

Putting one foot in front of the other,
seeing a light that is now visible.

And yet I feel that pull
that was the bond of Friendship,
memories halting the steps,
as the good times flash before my eyes.

Hope as I look forward beckons me;
A sense of the bittersweet will always
be there, a constant reminder of days gone by.

Time will never the question of " Why?"
It will ease most of the pain, and Father Time
will once more swing that pendulum to the
Happy Side once more.

I look back e'er so oft, and smile;
sometimes the tears come.

It is a start.