Where Does Steel Go To Be Strong?

Sleepily in the dark I lay in bed
  Listening to your tears of woe dread
The pain of your failure choking your heart
  Wishing only for this world to depart
The pain of life and the hurt you feel
  Our problems and life must seem surreal
“Why do you stay with me and put up with this?”
  I want to crawl in a hole and disappear.”
Financial problems weigh on her more
  Than tons of bricks by the score
I watch as she crumbles into broken bits
  Feeling hopeless, lost in chaos midst
Holding her close and feel her weep
  In all this why do I her keep.
The simple truth is that I do love her still
  Even in pain and anguish she fills
Me to the very top. And when I am ready
  And about to break I look at her unsteady
Her body shaking. And know I can’t
  Say what needs to be said. Oh, to rant,
To chastise and scream. To purge the anger
  In my heart, to vent the steam I can’t hold any longer
But wanting to say what I feel would be the last
  Breaking the thread she tightly clasp
Over the brink into the abyss it would send her
  She would end her life and then render
Me without my love and life companion
  Brick by brick to my back this adds on
More to yoke and burden I bare
  Covering my hurt and anger with care.

  So….
I must endure and never give in for long.
Where does steel go to be strong?