Why?

A mother’s love is so secure
Except when mother is unsure.
A child who's different from most
Needs an understanding host.

Many diplomas and degrees
Not meant for problem kids like these.
Although you want to do what’s right
You fill your child so full of fright.

You want to keep me here at home
And make me feel so all alone.
You think it best for me to stay
Inside this house and never play.

What I need you will never know
As long as I am locked up so.
Beyond the gentle touch of friends
It's only you, that’s where it ends.

I need to hear other’s voices
Frightened, sad, and their rejoices.
Again, I need the gentle touch
Of people. This I need so much.

Thoughts crisscrossed and nothing fired
Leave me feeling mad and tired.
And this sad life all bemired
Makes me wish my life expired.

I understand you want the best.
But keeping me from all the rest
Cannot help my situation-
Burnt in mental conflagration.

Time and time again I’d tire
Wishing you’d put out this fire.
Stuck inside this box of flame
You only know I know my name.

There’s so much more that I can grasp
But you don’t get it, so I gasp
For another try at learning
While I stand here always burning.

When all else fails I understand
I can’t reach you. You’re undermanned.
Concern is not what’s needed here.
Kindness will always get you there.

Everything you try to do,
Demonstrates your love for you.
Eventually I will go
Vacant so you'll never know.

Eve, my mother, I loved you so.