wondering

i know i am asleep
In my tower
my small world
Which means nothing, really
Waiting to be roused
To be retrieved

But who are You, now?
i'm wondering
my Prince Charming
Dressed in black
With a burning desire
To have me as Yours

You etch Your will
Into my flesh
Telling me
i'm Yours
Yours alone
not even mine
i feel safe

i want to trust You
but i question You
i hope You know
that's just my way
and i will learn
to always obey

then You're gone

i have waited
Until my eyes fill with tears
And my mind aches
Wondering
Have You turned away?

You've touched on
The deepest nerve
The weakest link
In my being
my anxious mentality
my fear of loss
Rejection, cold and alone
Anger follows

You are either careless
Or frighteningly precise
i don't know
Which to believe
Or what to expect at all
how You want me to feel

You want to know me
And i don't know me
Except to say
That the worst You can do
Is to know me
Then leave me
Wondering