Wonders the Bad Girl

I haven’t found it in sex
but I keep looking
under the sheets
there must be satisfaction
contentment
goodwill
where are you?
I’ve looked in orgasms
and when I didn’t find you
I looked in screams
and let myself be
taken hard and thrown down
on sticky rest stop floors
I was sure I would wake up knowing
too much was enough
but when it all came down
what I discovered was
I knew far too little
and the need had but grown
into something far too large
for any well-endowed man
to fulfill this searching soul
now that would be something
but what I’m left with
is something not quite
so where are you?