Wonders the Good Girl

If I talk first
smile
and then laugh
I wonder if then I could open up
close my eyes
and sleep in the knowledge
of how one becomes a lover
I once wanted to
but it’s not so easy
when you’ve only had one
and a lot of forevers
can take forever to forget
when the good girl whispers “don’t forget”
granted, I would be taking it all for
but the good girl can’t hush
the incessant whisper
bellowing up inside of me
oh this knowledge
that there is more
then I’ve ever felt or experienced
penetrate me
till I surrender
a good girl